blood and tears

so. da lama x update blog. yg x ramai orang ni. but still. at least intan ezzety can get my updates. n khairul. if he's reading la kan.

another 1 month. da habis cuti. for the first month. of my cuti. i applied every single retail shop yang ade vacancy. sad enough none called me. a few. but not a good offer. so i talked to this 1 lawyer. applied for internship at his firm. n i terus dapat. turns out. he's looking for people. to do small stuff.

there, i met Alice. 52 year old clerk. very warm. friendly. cool. no words can describe how cool she is for 52 years old. 1st week was all about learning. 2nd week, i got to go court. went there with hanis. it was fun. following the breach of trust case this 29th of april. this particular lawyer handles accident matter more than criminal or conveyancing matter. kinda freaky to see he get his money from blood and tears of people. but hey, its legal. and working in the firm shows me how firm works. different firm got different system. so far, i like Alice's system.

i'll be working there for the next month, may. reluctant to leave the firm. while i'm doing the filing and stuff. i got to see how much money coming in and how much money going out. its thrilling u know. working as an intern really motivates me to become a lawyer. insyaallah.

Social Psychology

today, aku da habis jawab social psycho paper! i manage to get 2 hours of sleep before the paper because i cant sleep! bukan sebab study ke ape, sebab makan ginkgo. so people, jangan makan overdose. mmg xboleh tido. badan lenguh-lenguh. nak tgk Project Runway then tido.

but 1 thing bothers me a lot.

i tend to see my friends are departing. like the circle is no longer a circle. it is like everywhere. maybe physical distance deter our encounter. its true. when we don't see someone as often as we did before, we most likely to focus on the thing that is in front of us rather than the thing that is far away from our eyes. so, aku tak nak la salahkan anyone in this matter. its just i miss u guys.

i miss her. baru jumpa break hari tu. tapi tak puas. ada rezeki jumpa lagi.

budak egypt. belajar kat Alexandria. we rarely talk now.;[

but so far, girls kt KL still in my heart. u know who u are.

but hey, i met new friends who become closer to me. everyone can see that each one of us are making new friends at our institution. bagus la kan. tak kan la nak be friends with the same people. since ur bestfriend is not there with u. damn lonely then. i miss both of u damn much. especially Khairul Anwar. sorry that i forgot ur birthday. i hope we can still talk like we use to talk and i am so proud of Intan Ezzety for such epiphany.

M M? NOT.

mtc 038

well well well. free2 habis 15 markah.-issue- punya la stay up smpai pukul 2.30-3 pagi. -rajin?aku pun nak buat statement jugak- dgn Nasa and Haikal. sebab final exam. and first paper 038. paper mr ikmal n madam bai. bukak2 je question 4. part B. blueggkhh! pening. takut. gentar. 15 marks. xtau nak cakap pe. teringat paper add maths kejap. sbb add maths teruk sangat. mtc 038, part B, question 4. nostalgic.....

beserah je la.....

so afta that. nak menyedapkan hati. paksa Wawa g Secret Recipe. of course ade Zack, Alia and Qissy. Sara ngn Farim mane2 tah. makan CARROT CAKE. -paham x carrot cake sedap?- nafsu buas. its been a while xlepak ngn the girls. especially Qissy. so we talked and laugh smpai lupa kesedihan 038. like semua xdpt jwb same question. Qissy melayan cerita Zack. high end la ape la. kesah aku. hahaha. Wawa ngn Alia beborak ngn aku. mmg best melayan diorg. awww. Miss u girls already. ohh. Wawa order choc cheese kot. Zack choc brownie. and makan tomyam. aku pow zack. tomyam noodle die. so xpayah lunch hari ni. kan da jimat. and then kitorg pergi Giant. Zack beli hape tah. Wawa pun same. canned food. sangat makanan bujang. And aku beli peanut butter with grape. finally. punya la desak Nasa suruh belanja. last sekali kene beli sendiri. hahahaha.

so now. dekat dalam bilik. nak tidur. tapi nak borak ngn Nasa. tapi die tgh tgk Fist of the North Star. tah anime pe tah. nnt aku lyn la tu. nnt. hidup mmg xpernah puas berborak. nak buat laundry petang ni.

F U :DD

not again....

nasa is back. i never realized i missed him that bad. (well qayyum, he's your roommate). whatever. its 4 o' clock. i want to sleep. but i cant. i had fun with doodle tonight. it went well. but i was disturb by the thoughts that my final exam is next week. so i did a little revision. after i finished my revision, i revise my very lovely favorite tv series! Betty. i managed to stream until episode 13th, season 4. n yess. i love betty so much.

every time i watched betty, i got inspired. her character is so inspiring!;] tells you to be positive no matter what happens to you. i enjoyed it. that particular episode is about blogging. what we read now is that people blog about their feelings. hatred the most.happiness too. what the writer-Ugly Betty wants to tell is that blogging helps you voice out.not all of us own a magazine or newspaper or tv company. so blog voice the owners vioce. it is not wrong to voice out your anger, i mean i did that too. but it is more cool,personal opinion, if we blog about something positive! i'm not saying that i wont write-hate anyone. but i hope i wont "tell" much. hahaha. dream on. this post is just a simple review for betty. hahaha.

so, tomorrow, my dear friend Arif will conduct a class at 8 AM. i don't know why the time is so perfect. i can't sleep now. how the hell am i suppose to wake up as early as 8 AM tomorrow?! not funny. he'll be teaching 038. that is our first paper for the upcoming exam. blughh.

and yes. i want to tell more about my aim for this 3-months of holiday. not exactly 3 months. i want to work. a part time job. i fill up few form at Pavilion, KL. if i ever get a job there, i have to take public transport. regret. yet, i don't want to work somewhere around my house. i used to work at Dunkin Donut. i get a lot fatter working there. its not fun to see donuts, sandwiches and coffee in front of your eyes for free! working there, you have to eat or you'll regret.

with that dream of part time job. i hope i can save as much as i can. because... i want my own car. a CLK would be fine. Cute Little Kancil/Kelisa. any would do. haha. imagine me in a kancil/kelisa. that will be like so hot! hahaha.

and not to forget. my dream body. i want a six-packs. badly. right now, i'm in the middle. i don't think i am that fat nor that skinny. middle means flabby. thats what Kay called me. what i have to do now is;
1) work my ass in the gym

wish me all the best!

F U

i miss Sulaiman Marsom, Zaleha Abdullah, Reni Diana, Johan Iskandar(not much), My nieces,Izzati Faiqah, Khairul Anwar, Hafizah Azra, Fadhly Zamry, Ashrul Afham, Anis Mustapha, Reynaldo William, Amirul Asri, Hanis Ali, Dewi Shafikah, Maisara Mustaffa, Lyana Zarrel. Najwa Ismail too!

much

you know how it feels when your friend is happy and you are not? you dig deep into your heart but still... no answer what is that feeling? jealousy? betrayed? i think i got an ISSUE! i'm lonely. my friend must think that it is funny to hear this from me. but hey, yes, i want someone, someone you can lean on when you're in deep trouble. right now, i have my friends. they love me. they care for me. they even breastfed me if i want. but they got their own shit. their own life. i don't want to bother them with my i-can-actually-solve-this-thing-on-my-own story. maybe i don't really need a girlfriend. its a rush. i hate being in a relationship. its the thing that i hate-love. in a relationship, you have to give commitment. its a new thing that i have to learn, adapt and develop. hard work.

i'm writing this post because i was inspired by Ugly Betty. Betty is about saying goodbye.

first thing first, betty. that 11th episode of season 4 is about saying goodbye and start all over again. she had to say goodbye to matt as he wants to help african's. so wahtever. what i actually see in that episode is that, i have to say goodbye to the things that is leaving me. so, goodbye. watching betty saying goodbye to matt really ease my pain. so, saying goodbye is a good way to move forward. so yes, i want to move forward. i don't want to stuck in this mud. i have aim, goal and ambition. i am young. lets not waste my shiny youth moment. LOL. so i should say goodbye to anything that holds me and start over a new page. what is that new page?

a car! a part-time job... and a lean & fit body before my 3rd semester. wish me all the best.

bokkk ehhh :DD

cerca

x puas aku menulis blog ni. rase macam nak cakap semua benda. tapi takut macam bohjan sebab desperate sgt nak org baca. so fine. orang semua tulis experience kat blog diorg. aku pun nak jugak la. so yeah. this entry will be a new kind of entry from me. telling my friends out there my updates. pentingkah?

last weekend. pegi novice. Novice Championship 2010. specially for English Debaters. this time, i'm more excited to learn and gain experience as history shows that if you aim high, too high actually, berangan jela. expecially if u don't work that hard. so this time. more relax. thanks to WAWA n QISSY. dua2 bitch ni thought me a lot of stuff. of course kitorg nak pegi finals. nak mencapub n stuff. tapi xde rezeki. they are like so cool afta winning or losing. like i wish i macam tu before this. we won 3 rounds n lost 3 rounds. ok la tu. macam score 50% for add maths test. hahaha. i love you girls so much!

n of course. my life kalau xde conflict macam fairy tale. last VC gaduh sana sini. Novice is all about commitment and trust that we put onto each other. memang tested la. so yeah. someone got eliminated. to make it fair, he or she can still come to the 3rd semester audition. (kalau die nak la kan)

not to forget. how i become so proud of my fellow new friends. MAR, BIELA and MIMI. all of them are new. in debate club of course. but they got to debate at Novice. as a swing team. Mar get to debate with RMC boys. Biela and Mimi got to debate with foreigners i think. so memang rezeki diorang to get that national kind of training. they look so happy back then.

not to forget my Black team. Hannah, Merc and Lego. they did well too. n i never seen Hannah laugh so much till she met Ashrul. that guy really know how to crack a joke. name it. any kind of joke. paling best. racist and sex joke. if i am to mention every single name here. it will be like "baik you buat assignment Qayyum"

cerca,

F U

Blood line

its normal for us to write to show our gratitude to something. yela. kau da happy mestila nak bagitau sume org. kalo marah lagi sial. mcm nak ambik SPM balik. nak kutok sume org pastu dapat A. baik karangan BM or BI. qayyum.... L A M E much.


here i wanna say how stupid i am to not show gratitude to my family. ade few moments back then rase macam they don't like my way. they think im all diffrent. banyak ikut kawan la. they worried much bout me. i understand how much Abah and Mak loves me. and of course, my talian hayat to survive kat Kuantan, Along and Jojo. they all agree to hate my new hairstyle. they think i look like MC Hammer. even madam jue pun ckp mcm tu. siot je. but i still love this hairdo. feels so like a rock star. u know those looks when u walk alone in a crowd n people stare at u. most of the time they like it. maybe the time line of fashion in my family lil bit different. my closest sibling is 9 years old older than me. he likes amy search. i like britney. berbeza gila. but we love each other. my family also think i'm too thin. but, they never see me sitting on a chair half naked. i look like Uncle Chong jual ikan. badan kurus perut besar. sometimes i'm confused. do i have to be all afro and fat so that my family feels like i'm a part of them. no. they actually want me to understand how and why i should be a part of them. no more late nights (agak s u s a h), no more smoking (i quit :DD) n of course study hard. my sister, Reni. have this painful quote everytime she help me, N O FREE LUNCH. main idiom kauuu! by enjoying my so called teen life, i'm afraid they actually see me as a stubborn and cocky son. with this upcoming holiday i will try to be a better son and party harder! LOL!

eeeeeekkkkkk :DD