this negative energy im feeling from u makes me sad my dear friend.

i love u too much that i cant hold myself anymore. so i have to let it out here since i know u'll notice that i've updated my blog after a while. u listening to Britney is funny and i know something is wrong.

never ever cross my mind that u're not fit in my circle of friend. everybody is special in their own way. for now i think most of u have found their self. we love ourselves. u might not realize it but all of us work hard on our own to achieve what we are so proud of right now. might be to comfy for now but it is sufficient. there's more to come and we certainly cant be dwelling over the same thing as there's just too much to think about. what im doing right now is to dwell for a second and get my ass on it as fast as i can. just like what ashie always told me. god i miss him right now.

just because ure a lil bit bigger than any of us doesnt make u not deserving a spot in our life. there is no such thing as spot or a place in our life. if u were to open ur eyes big enough, u would see how many people we have let them to enter our life and with destiny, ure stuck with us.

so please, dont be sad. i love u so much dear friend. u're so close to me. i cant help myself seeing u gloomy all night long.

n u need to be patient. remember what we have always told u?u have to take one step at a time. all of us have been tip toeing ourselves to our own journey. shortcuts doesnt help. it break us down even harder. please. be patient. u need it. endurance. i need u to have it for urself. u dont need it for others. for others to be impressed with u. no. u need it for urself.

with all my heart. i love u bitch