lama rasanya aku angkuh kat dunia ni. banyak rezeki diberi. tapi tak bersyukur. family yang very loving, understanding friends and fiscally im blessed unlike other people. my life actually is blissful. cuma aku je yang buat sengsara. hahaha. macam biasa la. "you choose your own destiny". aku harap bila aku bersujud, akan hilang keangkuhan aku sedikit demi sedikit. terhakis. aminn

just got back from PENANG

it was a blast. blast blast blast. tapi kalau tak hujan. lagi best. right now im feeling down sebab berhujan for like 3days. haish. dah lah esok ada hal. mintak-mintak la boleh bangun. well. aku ingatkan nak buat macam review la kan. sebab rajin gila ambik gambar makanan-makanan yg buat aku buang air besar sampai 4 kali sehari. bukan cirit yeah. tapi memang yang sihat punya. yeaaaa. nanti la buat "FOOD REVIEW" tu. malam ni nak rehat. tapi gambar kat facebook nak upload malam ni jugek.

speechless. all i talk about is feelings. sial. dah tak ada benda lain nak cakap. ada je cerita lain. but i emphasize too much on love issues. guess when it happened to me, i just cant stop talking about it. karma....

i stumbled upon this quote "our hearts are drunk with beauty that our eyes could never see" by George W. Russell. i love this quote. its like Hero by Mariah Carey.not exactly like Mariah but it make sense by comparing these two.

i bet everyone has this peculiar moment where they feel ugly or anything that pulls you down, especially physical traits. i know how it feels. mockery, rejections, swirling eyes and all that shit that doesnt make sense in Oprah world.

i like that quote because i find it true. the more you stop thinking about other people's beauty and envying it, the more you will see your very own beauty. i believe that everyone is beautiful and my belief here might sounds like im being hypocrite but the only thing that makes you look ugly is you attitude.

if you have this attitude that says you are ugly, you are ugly then. you need to shape your attitude. tell yourself that you are not ugly. like me, i would say "im not ugly but not yet handsome" so that gives me a good reason why i should jog, lift up weigh, control my diet because beauty is health. its a trend now. i was thinking of bringing a bike to Shah Alam later.

cross out ugly issue, attitude and now health. i say health is very important because it build up who you are outside. at this early age, this is where we can shape our lifestyles. we have time now, we dont even need to work for money. we are at our best before we face the bosses, the traffic and the loans. so start it now, start your diet now. shape your life from now. i always tell my friends that "this is our only time that we can be at our best" and i have faith in my sayings.

so friends. shape your attitudes and work for your flaws.

hey

hey. i had a very pleasant day. went for hi tea with tha boys, wawa and umie. so far all i can say im having fun. occupying myself with people. making myself frenzy may sounds weak. but loneliness dont kill. it'll make you stronger. deep inside anyone's heart who got broken-hearted is filled with emptiness. like almost all of my recent post that i have been talking about heartache and pain. but i find it amusing how we can actually decide what we will be, as we actually control everything and yet we cant control our feelings. thats how complicated our emotions can be. we can adjust it to something else but if we cant get over something, we cant get over it. its true. i used to be the guy who pep talked all my friends that relationship is nothing. but once it slaps me. i know i cant go through it alone. so i find my 6th of Dec to be something blessfull. companions. i love. if i can go through this by learning things that i have to learn by facing it, i know i can nail my future.

what's ahead boy? work, family, fiscal, relationship, friends, traffic, morning, weekends, party, sleepless night and the list goes on and on and on. i can cross out some of the things right now if i learn and keep learning.

hugs and french kisses.

happy birthday!!

happy birthday to Najwa Arifah Ismail! i love u to bits baby girl:))

guess you are the lonely one

hmm. sometimes. i yearn for those 3words to be said to me. last time, i think, without such word, i'm gonna be lonely. but you know what kawan-kawan? there's so many kind of love out there that you can take and fill it into your heart that you wont feel lonely. undeniable fact that in the end you still want to have such feelings that can be best interpreted by R&J, Romeo and Juliet. but hey, i am still living and definitely not looking for anyone. once i start looking, every wall that i build is useless. so yeah its stupid. i rather focus on things that i can hold and build. like new friendship, old too. and of course, existing love from family and friends.

waiting for one person that can crush your wall and dominate your heart is tiring.