what a sweet surprise?!

its 31st August. had a pleasant weekend at home. lets cut the crap. the girls and boys known as 6+2+1 throw me a surprise birthday party!! how sweet is that?after 10 days. i was like "yeah, they might not celebrate it with me" but hey, it was such a sweet surprise. i told u girls and boys that i was expecting it and its not that much of a surprise but, that shows how bad i want it. hahahah. kesian gila kan. i miss all the old moment. i wish i hadn't screw anything but i cant turn back anthing kan? so lets just cherish those moments.

thank you so much to Najwa Arifah, Arif Aizuddin, Zakwan Anuar, Farim Shahnan, Qis Hakim, Sara Zen, Sharifah Alia, and Umie Idayu.

LALALOVE YOU PEOPLE TO BITS!

u just dont know when to stop

hey you. stop. you are in the wrong lane.use that road to turn back.go to the other side.

ohh. thanks for telling. i would have lost. thank you so much. hmm. since u mention. do you think that place is still open?

i think so. you better hurry. its 3:35 am. it might just shut in a while.

thanks dear.i better get going.i might miss the chance to have decent food.

yes. you better hurry. but be careful while driving. the road is not your best friend.

i will be careful. see you on the flip side! :)

i am copycatting FARIM SHAHNAN. so what?

hahaha. her recent post really made me feel uneasy. i want to make one too. kudos to Farim Shahnan for such inspiring post. lalalove!

the post is about telling things from your heart without confrontation. so more peace. here i go :

1. i still love you but i dont want to hurt you. you are precious and will always have a spot in my heart. who knows if its meant to be, it will be. insya Allah

2. you have so many things to say. so let it out. you are vague.

3. accept me the way i am please.

4. kau racun perosak. joy killer. u with ur brain. buzz off forever please.

5. thanks for everything. u guys mean half of the world to me. hahaha. the other part is for the other things.

6. rempit-rempit ku. i will always cherish our brotherhood.

7. i wish and pray that u will find the right guy. u deserve to be happy and have regular sex. hahahaha

8. love u to bits bitches. have always been there for me.

9. aku nak sepak tali bra kau setiap kali kau lalu dengan baju putih tu.

10. i am so sorry. i didnt mean to.

:P

epiphany and choice

i had so much fun on the 21st. dearest friends paid a visit. we laugh throughout the whole night and that night ends up with tragedy that change my life in a split second.

the title goes epiphany. credits to my lovely friend who thought me that word. sudden realization. for the past few weeks, many things happened to me. i become someone i want to be. which is something i cant afford. so decision made to go through the easy way. i get whatever i want with breaking people's heart. no such feeling of guilt but there's a moment when i stop and think about whatever i am doing and that moment goes away easily as what offered is full of temptations. i go with the flow. i cherish every moment though i know its wrong.

choice. perfectly explained by intan. life is about choice. every day we face situation that demand us to make decision. in a way life is very objective. macam exam. salah jawapan fail la. same goes to life. every decision that we made will result us something.

alhamdulillah in this holy month, i hope that i my answer to my issuesare right. how i wish its a perfect answer. but there's always barrier to it. lust, wants, temptations and the list goes on and on and on. with me turning 19, i hope i can be a better teenager that make a wise decision in every issue. let my last year of teenage be the best year of my life.

thank God.

adios

alhamdulillah.

hakim-menghakimi

take note : its my anniversary, i'm down with a mild fever, my throat hurts like hell and of course i am hungry. astaga. hahahaha. lapar tetap lapar. demam tetap demam. bertahan lah sebentar.

for the past few hours, i have been checking my wall for the latest birthday wishes, reading those wall post with a big smile. thank you everyone. your wishes made my day. i hope today will be even better. i'm going to cook for my lovely friends tonight. lama tak main bakar-bakar. hehehe.

lepas sahur je terus straight pergi chow kit with Lego. beli ayam, sotong, kentang, bawang putih, parsley and salad. for all this lovely ingredient, i spent about rm 50. which is so expensive. now i understand what is mahal and murah in groceries. am going to hunt for few other things after this.

so, the title goes normal. judge. judging. word that describes teenagers. semua orang guna perkataan itu. especially when people talk about them. what do actually people talk about you? for me, in my point of view, i would say your principles.

take an easy example, people judge you based on your outfit. you are what you wear. same goes to what you eat. if you eat a lot, then its a foodie, if you wear something wrong, you are stupid. senang tak? principles is the rule of conduct. it shows how you conduct things in life. so, when people judge you, maybe, there is something wrong with your rule of conduct. maybe a few amendments would make you a better person.

being me is not easy. for the past few years. i learnt about attitude that people have towards me. its not easy though to cope with all the talking, mocking, and of course the society judgement. but one thing i learn is that people tell you things for reason. its the fact that we cant judge our own act. so, when people talk about you, why don't we take a second and see what we have done that we got such judgement. and if there's nothing wrong with you, baru la nak marah-marah ke buat blog post ke apa ke. hahahahahaha

byebye

what is it about me?

hahahahaha. i need a good reality tv show. like the apprentice. to boost me up. to have those entrepreneurship spirit back. to be able to plan things well. i need Hanis' and Intan's pep talk. Along's of course. the best of the bunch. i need my mother's smile. to lift me up from this scary slum of laziness. i need everything that i have been missing so far. how i wish there's no test for tomorrow. boleh lah balik malam ni. jumpa budak-budak.

my heart jumps when i watched Wafiyya's dance video. damn. i miss her so much. crush me people as i am so fragile right now. luar nampak boleh tahan. tapi 18 tahun jadi anak bongsu. so memang manja. shishh.

1 thing i'm looking forward is cooking on the 21st. haaaaaaaaa. mesti meriah. tapi itu la. takut semua busy. yang duduk kat KL tak datang aku jejak korang. tuntut hutang. hahahahahahaha.

cepat lah masa berlalu. cepat lah tidur. cepat lah sahur. cepat lah subuh. cepat la En. Jumaat. cepat lah Zakwan Anuar. cepatttt.

;D

berjaya?

DC baru habis. finally i get to see my project working. hmmm. im not upset despite the result. im upset with the value of the competition. time management was below average, it was a weak management compared to last year DC. not to forget, the superior age wise people. just because you're older with more experience doesn't mean that you're better than us as we see things differently. we had our moments of failure that gives us the picture of this field. but its okay. karma is a bitch. what goes around comes around. we have few tournaments ahead of us. lets just see how the game will be later.

KAU TETAP BURUK DAN BODOH. ;D

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

fuhh. fair.

game. its the game. no matter how hard you try, the computer will never be fair. in some games, you can never win. i hate computers. especially the ugly one. some computers have bad hardware, so it shows in its performance. what an analogy kan? should i get credits for this one? how human actually is like computer. computers shape the game ; put the best player, read our movement, even paint our movement. it never considers our feeling and passion. so, thats why we have cheats. to break the codes. till now, i dont know what is the best cheats to understand the game. maybe i should never give up to look for the key. how i wish machines have feelings. ;(

such word

i cant think of a single word now to describe how happy i am rite now. lega? gembira? rindu? tak tenang? semua ada. haish. trap in angau. maybe that is my state rite now. entah la. clearly, some people know about whatever i am doing rite now. ada yang happy for me and ada yang pull up straight face bila aku start bercerita. tapi tak apa la. i'll do things that makes me happy. dan, aku happy dengan life aku sekarang. life is about choices. i choose to go this way.

ada yang menyusahkan, keanak-anakan, dan bodoh mengacau hidup aku. macam bangun pagi je terus dengar budak-budak dekat bawah pasang lagu apa haram jadah tah. stupid alarm clock.

orang office yang penuh dengan persoalan. kenapa susah sangat nak buat aktiviti di U tersayang ni? itu la persoalan nya. ada je cerita di sebalik keputusan yang pelajar-pelajar tak akan tahu. as long as i can go to Jengka, im fine with it though i have to make few decision that might hurt and raise many questions, nak buat macam mana? pergi la tanya datin-datin di office tu.

whatever it is, what i am facing right now is lifetime experience. so i am going to take it gracefully, ramai je orang yang suka berdrama tapi life is drama. so later on, aku akan jumpa benda-benda haram ni lagi 10, 20, 30 tahun akan datang. so Qayyum Iskandar Bin Sulaiman, suck it up.

i cant wait to spend more time with my loved one. every single second spent, sangat precious. family, friends and of course yang special.

i know you dont like cheryl cole, tapi i like. live with it. hahahaha. love