hakim-menghakimi

take note : its my anniversary, i'm down with a mild fever, my throat hurts like hell and of course i am hungry. astaga. hahahaha. lapar tetap lapar. demam tetap demam. bertahan lah sebentar.

for the past few hours, i have been checking my wall for the latest birthday wishes, reading those wall post with a big smile. thank you everyone. your wishes made my day. i hope today will be even better. i'm going to cook for my lovely friends tonight. lama tak main bakar-bakar. hehehe.

lepas sahur je terus straight pergi chow kit with Lego. beli ayam, sotong, kentang, bawang putih, parsley and salad. for all this lovely ingredient, i spent about rm 50. which is so expensive. now i understand what is mahal and murah in groceries. am going to hunt for few other things after this.

so, the title goes normal. judge. judging. word that describes teenagers. semua orang guna perkataan itu. especially when people talk about them. what do actually people talk about you? for me, in my point of view, i would say your principles.

take an easy example, people judge you based on your outfit. you are what you wear. same goes to what you eat. if you eat a lot, then its a foodie, if you wear something wrong, you are stupid. senang tak? principles is the rule of conduct. it shows how you conduct things in life. so, when people judge you, maybe, there is something wrong with your rule of conduct. maybe a few amendments would make you a better person.

being me is not easy. for the past few years. i learnt about attitude that people have towards me. its not easy though to cope with all the talking, mocking, and of course the society judgement. but one thing i learn is that people tell you things for reason. its the fact that we cant judge our own act. so, when people talk about you, why don't we take a second and see what we have done that we got such judgement. and if there's nothing wrong with you, baru la nak marah-marah ke buat blog post ke apa ke. hahahahahaha

byebye

what is it about me?

hahahahaha. i need a good reality tv show. like the apprentice. to boost me up. to have those entrepreneurship spirit back. to be able to plan things well. i need Hanis' and Intan's pep talk. Along's of course. the best of the bunch. i need my mother's smile. to lift me up from this scary slum of laziness. i need everything that i have been missing so far. how i wish there's no test for tomorrow. boleh lah balik malam ni. jumpa budak-budak.

my heart jumps when i watched Wafiyya's dance video. damn. i miss her so much. crush me people as i am so fragile right now. luar nampak boleh tahan. tapi 18 tahun jadi anak bongsu. so memang manja. shishh.

1 thing i'm looking forward is cooking on the 21st. haaaaaaaaa. mesti meriah. tapi itu la. takut semua busy. yang duduk kat KL tak datang aku jejak korang. tuntut hutang. hahahahahahaha.

cepat lah masa berlalu. cepat lah tidur. cepat lah sahur. cepat lah subuh. cepat la En. Jumaat. cepat lah Zakwan Anuar. cepatttt.

;D

berjaya?

DC baru habis. finally i get to see my project working. hmmm. im not upset despite the result. im upset with the value of the competition. time management was below average, it was a weak management compared to last year DC. not to forget, the superior age wise people. just because you're older with more experience doesn't mean that you're better than us as we see things differently. we had our moments of failure that gives us the picture of this field. but its okay. karma is a bitch. what goes around comes around. we have few tournaments ahead of us. lets just see how the game will be later.

KAU TETAP BURUK DAN BODOH. ;D

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

fuhh. fair.

game. its the game. no matter how hard you try, the computer will never be fair. in some games, you can never win. i hate computers. especially the ugly one. some computers have bad hardware, so it shows in its performance. what an analogy kan? should i get credits for this one? how human actually is like computer. computers shape the game ; put the best player, read our movement, even paint our movement. it never considers our feeling and passion. so, thats why we have cheats. to break the codes. till now, i dont know what is the best cheats to understand the game. maybe i should never give up to look for the key. how i wish machines have feelings. ;(

such word

i cant think of a single word now to describe how happy i am rite now. lega? gembira? rindu? tak tenang? semua ada. haish. trap in angau. maybe that is my state rite now. entah la. clearly, some people know about whatever i am doing rite now. ada yang happy for me and ada yang pull up straight face bila aku start bercerita. tapi tak apa la. i'll do things that makes me happy. dan, aku happy dengan life aku sekarang. life is about choices. i choose to go this way.

ada yang menyusahkan, keanak-anakan, dan bodoh mengacau hidup aku. macam bangun pagi je terus dengar budak-budak dekat bawah pasang lagu apa haram jadah tah. stupid alarm clock.

orang office yang penuh dengan persoalan. kenapa susah sangat nak buat aktiviti di U tersayang ni? itu la persoalan nya. ada je cerita di sebalik keputusan yang pelajar-pelajar tak akan tahu. as long as i can go to Jengka, im fine with it though i have to make few decision that might hurt and raise many questions, nak buat macam mana? pergi la tanya datin-datin di office tu.

whatever it is, what i am facing right now is lifetime experience. so i am going to take it gracefully, ramai je orang yang suka berdrama tapi life is drama. so later on, aku akan jumpa benda-benda haram ni lagi 10, 20, 30 tahun akan datang. so Qayyum Iskandar Bin Sulaiman, suck it up.

i cant wait to spend more time with my loved one. every single second spent, sangat precious. family, friends and of course yang special.

i know you dont like cheryl cole, tapi i like. live with it. hahahaha. love

SORANG-SORANG

note the time and date.

its the final for the world cup. i am all alone in my room. sedihhhh:(

im not feeling well to go out with the others. nak je ikut diorang overnight but im too tired and worn out tonight. no one on ym. shitty moment. i've slept from 8 something and just got awake. Fad called, nak borak pun tak ade mood. haishh. i hate this feeling. demam. tu la. i ate too many durians. seronok sangat. hahaha. i had fun though today.;)

the junior debaters is cool. we, the seniors, push them to the limits as DC is coming up in not more than a month just to avoid debating during Puasa. so okay la. we've pushed them as hard and as far we could. googling every single thing that help them to become a better speaker. i hope it works as seeing them debating 2 days in a row kills me. penat jugak nak practice je. i hope my duty is fulfilled. ;)

i seriously don't know what to do right now. how could Lego leaves me alone. he could wake me up at least. hahaha. considerate la tu. tak nak kacau orang sakit. have yet to see Zack. i hope he's all fine. lots of thing to tell and to hear.

lately, asyik rindu je kat budak-budak. its been awhile since i've spent my time with the girls. Isya and Wafiyya, i miss both of you like hell. nak sleepover la nanti. Maisara pun sama. cepat betul dia besar. gerammmm. i hope i can stay at home masa cuti mid-sem tuu.

i love my friend too much. i cant wait for Krol to come back. looking eff-ing forward to meet with all of them. mesti best if all of us can hang around like we used to hang like before. life has push all of us away from each other but we know our string as group of friends will always pull us back together. sedih la pergi debate kat Jengka and Dewi is having all the time and chance to see Krol. Damn you bitch. hahaha.

cheers!;)

ONE FINE DAY

fuhhh. its raining rite now here at Kuantan. macam faham-faham je. why is it always like this. i can imagine the seniors gone through the same shit. the fear of loosing a friend bila result MUET dah keluar. some pass and some dont. haishh. see, to go to BLS, one must get at least 3.o for cgpa and score band 4 for MUET. sounds easy. no, its not easy. its unpredictable. its the fear of the unknown 1 day before result MUET keluar. my dear friends, its not the end of the world bila u all tak score MUET. there must be a way bila u betul-betul nak something. everyone know it is true. so dont give up that easy. who knows with lots of prayers God will finally bukak pintu hati Dean Law Fac nak buat interview? :)

take your time to heal. dont take too long. u might lost precious thing along the way. so, take your time and say goodbye to this part of past. when you say goodbye to one thing that will pull you down, then you'll see things better. i know some experienced this before. but no harm trying again.;)insyaallah

i wish everyone pass their MUET. but its in God's hand. He want to test His slave. there are thousands of challenge in front of us. this is one of the challenges. org cakap senang la kan since aku da lepas. this is like me talking to myself. i can burst my tears anytime if i see my friends crying. n how i wish Zack will be fine. haishhh. xsuka la masalah-masalah ni. its like seeing someone you cannot help. as a friend, kalau boleh semua nak tolong. but, in this case. tak boleh buat apa. haisshhh.

kenapa la UiTM tak buat Bel je as a qualification. kan bagus. tak payahlah bazir RM 60 everytime nak sit for MUET. dengan sound interruption masa Listening Test. complaint yang selalu aku dengar. siap tolong orang buat application nak buat paper Listening balik da. but so far, hapak pun tak da. typical Gov agency.

adios.