life is about choices

this would be my 2nd time writing an SPM essay with the same title. :D

oh yes. i am comfortable with myself now. i know what i want. when i want. who i want. its all crystal clear now. i can see myself becoming who i should be without jeopardizing who i want be. it is what Sue from the Shoes Store told me. as long as you can juggle everything, you can have what you want. as long as you stick with your principle and amend your wants, so that it suits your need. so yeah. you can have it all. writing this thing at such early age, i might not have all perspective that a 50 years old man has but one thing for sure, i know the best thing for me now.

sinful joys is indeed a sin. its a mistake. its the wrong choice, pick, selection, step, road, but in the end, it is still one of the options available. when you got stuck in everything in between, you are forced to choose. to choose the right thing. with this mind writing this post, it is inevitable for me to make mistake. dear friends, let loose and make mistake as for this age, with little knowledge, mistake is our best teacher. learn from it. not learning is stupid. i am not pious but i still have views. i know what is right and wrong.

one thing that ponders me upon mistake-teacher is that why do we keep repeating such thing? we learned from our mistake but it seems like it just doesn't stick with our heart. the glue that binds a teacher and his students would be love. not like typical the typical three words. but love. you know that love can exist in many ways. so i am saying that we have to love our mistake that we take as our lesson so that it sticks with us. no matter how many pep talks, advices, lectures or anything like it, if you do not love your lesson, you might as well tell the your friend, family or any random people that their advices are not working.

so love, i hope you will learn your lesson in your own way. to become the middle man in your life is a heartache. you get everything you want. you even got the best mistake one could have right now. i guess there is just no love between you and your lesson? i love u love but i think for now, i can't afford to bug you anymore. one thing for sure, you will hear the same old thing from me and you don't love it at all.

you can live without us. i know you can. we will let you go and pull you back in when we are ready again.