blah la kau. nyah kau dari dunia ni! ahahaha

*sambil menarik nafas lega*. tak lega lagi. bahu aku sakit. nak pergi jumpa wak rasidi macam fairy tale. malas betul nak beratur untuk urutan yang memang best dari jawa tua tu. so kena la bangun awal-awal esok pagi. hahahaha. macam boleh?

mula-mula cakap dengan Alice aku habis exam 8 hb. so kalau nak kerja pun start 11hb. tapi sekarang rasa menyesal sebab bosan dah mula masuk selimut aku. selimut aku dah tak best. tak ada keseronokan untuk baring di atas katil selama beberapa hari. i want some action. people! semalam aku rasa down gila lepas lepak dengan Wawa. nothing wrong with her. as usual, her companion is like the best thing could ever happened to me. so siapa yang tak dapat rugi sangat. okay. tiba-tiba cerita Wawa pulak. suppose aku lepak ngn kawan-kawan aku malam semalam. tapi semua macam haram. ada yang dump aku, ada yang malas nak keluar, ada yang tak dapat call langsung, ada yang nak pindah n etc. macam-macam la. aku pun melayan la internet. sempat jugak tengok Glee Britney! best gila. tapi aku still rasa bosan. so tidur la. pukul 2 baru bangun. produktif sangat.

fear of the unknown. result finals. macam mana la nak hadapi? i know i can do BLS. i want to. Ya Allah, tolong lah berikan ku kesenangan untuk pergi ke BLS. amin.

plus, kesian kakak aku. kerja bagai nak rak. but i know it worth the sweats. so Along. relax la ya. banyak-banyak sabar. nanti saya belikan Baskin Robin tapi awak bayar. :)))

moral:we are on our own.

its childish part 2

stupid. selfish. heart wrecking. bodoh sangat. why on Earth. your existance is a mistake. you ruined her life. now, she has to start all over again. hmm. nasib baik lah aku tak jumpa orang macam kau. bodoh sangat. one thing for sure, i'll make sure that you will never creep back into her life. leave her alone. she totally deserves someone better than you.

not to forget the other one. ini pun kes luar cantik. dalam bodoh. kosong. kalau betul kau sayang dia. you would at least listen to her. dah cukup bagus lah selama ni dia dengar pujuk rayu kau. biar dia hanging. melayan perangai kau yang meluat tu. perasan bagus. bodoh bodoh bodoh. kalau jumpa dia, listen to her. a very shocking explanation. aku pun terkejut. no wonder dia buat kau macam tu. we get it that it's not your fault and you deserve to do this. to end this. tapi untuk melepak bersama dan mengutuk dia. come'on. kau pun sama taraf. sekufu. sesuai lah duduk semeja makan nasi lemak.

ada telinga dengar. menyesal tak sudah nanti.

ohh yes

ohh yes. puas aku tahun ni. macam-macam jadi. *cakap macam dah masuk 2011* hahaha. raya yang tiba sangat menyeronokkan. bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi yang aku masih ada family and lovely friends. im gonna keep this up till forever. insya Allah.

ohh ya. macam-macam jadi. orang yang rapat tahu la apa yang jadi. sinful joys tu salah satu benda yang banyak ajar aku. haish. tapi benda dah lepas. so lepas ni aku tahu la apa nak buat.

i had fun tho seminggu terakhir puasa. duduk rumah je siang-siang. buat kuih raya. orang order. melimpah ruah kerja. hehehe. seronok kerja dengan Hanis. very hardworking.*feeling-feeling boss*. hehehe. kalau tak jadi lawyer memang jadi business man je lah aku. hahaha

pagi raya slow sikit. tak banyak benda. aku siap sempat update blog lagi. bilik dah kemas. rumah pun dah siap. kuih raya semua set. beg balik kampung pun dah nak siap. *malasnya kemas bag*

adios.

what a sweet surprise?!

its 31st August. had a pleasant weekend at home. lets cut the crap. the girls and boys known as 6+2+1 throw me a surprise birthday party!! how sweet is that?after 10 days. i was like "yeah, they might not celebrate it with me" but hey, it was such a sweet surprise. i told u girls and boys that i was expecting it and its not that much of a surprise but, that shows how bad i want it. hahahah. kesian gila kan. i miss all the old moment. i wish i hadn't screw anything but i cant turn back anthing kan? so lets just cherish those moments.

thank you so much to Najwa Arifah, Arif Aizuddin, Zakwan Anuar, Farim Shahnan, Qis Hakim, Sara Zen, Sharifah Alia, and Umie Idayu.

LALALOVE YOU PEOPLE TO BITS!

u just dont know when to stop

hey you. stop. you are in the wrong lane.use that road to turn back.go to the other side.

ohh. thanks for telling. i would have lost. thank you so much. hmm. since u mention. do you think that place is still open?

i think so. you better hurry. its 3:35 am. it might just shut in a while.

thanks dear.i better get going.i might miss the chance to have decent food.

yes. you better hurry. but be careful while driving. the road is not your best friend.

i will be careful. see you on the flip side! :)

i am copycatting FARIM SHAHNAN. so what?

hahaha. her recent post really made me feel uneasy. i want to make one too. kudos to Farim Shahnan for such inspiring post. lalalove!

the post is about telling things from your heart without confrontation. so more peace. here i go :

1. i still love you but i dont want to hurt you. you are precious and will always have a spot in my heart. who knows if its meant to be, it will be. insya Allah

2. you have so many things to say. so let it out. you are vague.

3. accept me the way i am please.

4. kau racun perosak. joy killer. u with ur brain. buzz off forever please.

5. thanks for everything. u guys mean half of the world to me. hahaha. the other part is for the other things.

6. rempit-rempit ku. i will always cherish our brotherhood.

7. i wish and pray that u will find the right guy. u deserve to be happy and have regular sex. hahahaha

8. love u to bits bitches. have always been there for me.

9. aku nak sepak tali bra kau setiap kali kau lalu dengan baju putih tu.

10. i am so sorry. i didnt mean to.

:P

epiphany and choice

i had so much fun on the 21st. dearest friends paid a visit. we laugh throughout the whole night and that night ends up with tragedy that change my life in a split second.

the title goes epiphany. credits to my lovely friend who thought me that word. sudden realization. for the past few weeks, many things happened to me. i become someone i want to be. which is something i cant afford. so decision made to go through the easy way. i get whatever i want with breaking people's heart. no such feeling of guilt but there's a moment when i stop and think about whatever i am doing and that moment goes away easily as what offered is full of temptations. i go with the flow. i cherish every moment though i know its wrong.

choice. perfectly explained by intan. life is about choice. every day we face situation that demand us to make decision. in a way life is very objective. macam exam. salah jawapan fail la. same goes to life. every decision that we made will result us something.

alhamdulillah in this holy month, i hope that i my answer to my issuesare right. how i wish its a perfect answer. but there's always barrier to it. lust, wants, temptations and the list goes on and on and on. with me turning 19, i hope i can be a better teenager that make a wise decision in every issue. let my last year of teenage be the best year of my life.

thank God.

adios

alhamdulillah.